Saturday, December 15, 2007

missing her

I am missing my mom so much right at this moment.

Friday, December 14, 2007

Katelyn - One month old

KATELYN Dec. 8, 2007 One month old
(thank you Mrs. Anderson for the quilt)
If I could read your mind, I might hear something like this. "Hmmm, she's got a little chin thing going on there. Lookin' a little chubby if I might say so myself. What a cutie!"
Little is the last things to describe Katelyn. At her 1 month check up she weighed in at 12 and half pounds! She's pretty much the size of a 3 month old.
The good news is that she is able to sleep through the night without having to eat. But right now she is waking up because she has a little cold and has yet to realize that breathing through your nose isn't the ONLY option.
Also, we need to figure out a way to keep Alysa from coming to visit us in the middle of the night. Mommy and Daddy are SO TIRED!! The other evening Tyler fell asleep eating his super. (at 5:30 pm) He went to bed for the night. Made for a quiet evening but then he was up at 4:45 in the morning. AHHHH
I have so much that I want to share with you all but so little time. Any "free" time that I have I am cleaning. As you all know, that is a job that is never done. I have to learn to set aside some time for myself and do some things that I want to do (scrap booking, writing) I've made a promise to myself that Saturday night after the kids go to bed I am going to my Christmas cards. It's probably only the second time that I have sent them since being married! oh the procrastinator in me....
Some of the things that I want to share with you are pictures of Pete (my dad). Since most of the picture are pre-digital is means taking the time to scan them. Time I don't have at the moment. (I kinda have 2 dads but that is another story for another time)
Some of you may wonder why I talk about how much I miss my mom and not so much my dad even though they passed away only 9 days apart. I want to share more about that....though I never finished my mom's story...... someday I will.
Anyway, Pete's birthday would have been Dec 2nd so I have been thinking about him a little more recently. My other dad's b-day is Dec 8th. I wasn't a very good daughter. I didn't even call him. Good intention. Lack of follow through. (If you read this Ricky- you will be getting your b-day/Christmas gift at some point :) It's something that I am working on)

Sunday, December 02, 2007

growing up so fast

sniff. sniff. (wipe a tear from my cheek)
Alysa is not my baby girl anymore.
As we all start to wake up from our afternoon naps we hear Alysa crying. Then Brian and I say, she doesn't sound like she is in her room. A few seconds later Alysa is in our room crawling into bed.

so you say.....what's your point?

Alysa sleeps in a crib still. How did she get out?

I don't really need to ask. I know that she is a little monkey. Dad said he found her sitting in the bathroom sink just this morning.

so, Daddy took the side of the crib off this evening and we converted the crib into a toddler daybed. pictures will be posted later

Friday, November 30, 2007

Katelyn is 3 weeks old

This picture may look innocent enough until you realize that Alysa has not had a paci since she was about 3 months old!! This is actually supposed to be for her dolly so that she will stop stealing Katelyn's.

Thank you Mrs. Watson for the pretty quilt!

Thank you Sherry for the soft bunny!

ps. the answer to the quiz. The top two are Tyler and the bottom two are Katelyn.

Wednesday, November 28, 2007


I'll tell you who is who in a couple days.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007


Quick! Which set is of Katelyn and which ones are Tyler?
There is no denying she looks a lot like her brother!

Thursday, November 22, 2007


The above picture is a wonderful gift of love from the church that I grew up in. A friend of mine came to visit for a few days and help out while Brian was at work. She gave us a card with some $ in it. She said it could be used to out to go out to eat or to get something we needed for the baby. I said that it would be good for diapers and wipes as that is what she needs the most right now. My friend said, "why don't you go take a look at what is in the back seat of my car." When I did, tears came to my eyes. Wow. What a gift of love and how faithful the Lord is to provide.

My friend thought I should share this picture with you. Mom and me on my wedding day. I am really missing her a lot right now.

You may notice that I did not title this "Happy Thanksging"

I have a lot to be thankful for and I am. Being happy. That is another matter.

I guess you could just say that I am tired. We all are here. Mostly it has to do with having a 2 week old in the house. Wow. Katelyn is two weeks old today. I can hardly believe it.

It's been a while since I have posted. What have we missed. Where would I begin? It's not the time to go into detail but I will ask again for your prayers as Brian and I seek God's will for our family. We are looking to get into full time ministry. With certain doors closing we just want to be sensitive to where we should be looking next.
Also, the 17th was our 6 year wedding anniversary. We met 10 years ago at New Brunswick Bible Institute. It wasn't love at first sight but we had only known each other a couple of months when feelings started to grow. The memories we share... the stories I could tell....
That is for other time.

Since I am so tired and "pictures are worth a thousand words"....

2 weeks old

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Picture of Katelyn

I can't really seem to capture her cuteness. There will be more pictures to come. I took quite a few on the digital without the flash. Though they looked fine on the camera screen, I realized they were too dark when they were transfered to the computer. She doesn't look like the same baby, does she?

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

We are home

We came home Sunday evening. It is nice to be back together as a family. Dad (Brian) took the whole week off from work to be here to help. Everyone seems to be adjusting well. Katelyn pretty much just sleeps and eats. She only has one really awake time during the day.
At first we thought Alysa was really going to have her nose bent about Katelyn but she seems to have warmed up to her. Hopefully this evening I will have time to put some more pictures up. I finally think Katelyn is cute. She looks like a different baby than in the pictures we have posted thus far. The swelling in her face is gone and she looks a lot like Tyler.

As far as how the delivery day went there is a lot to tell. I will get it written as soon as I can. Being a c-section and with emotions running high it was an interesting day to say the least.

Friday, November 09, 2007

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Here she is!!!

Katelyn Alexis was born at 8:12 am. She weighs in at 9 lbs. 8 oz. and 19 inches . Mom and baby are doing well. More info later.

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

9 months

not a great picture of me but for those of you who know me know that I HATE having my picture taken - so this is probably as good as you will get. And, considering I put it off last minute there isn't much time to take them. I will be at the hospital at 6 am TOMORROW!! I know, I know, I don't look 9 months pregnant. Some people call me lucky because I carry the way I do. I kinda always wish that I was bigger. As I blast from the past I'll add my preggo pic with Tyler later tonight. I don't have one with the girls.
about 8 months with Tyler

They are getting ready to say hi to their new sister. They have NO IDEA what they are in for. In fact they really don't have a clue what it means about mommy going to the hospital. All Tyler cares about is that he and Alysa get to go to Nana Ritchie's Sunday school. That is what he looks forward to all week. Going to Sunday school. And....I know, I know....I have such cute kids. SMILE.

Well, besides the other preggo pic tonight the next one should be of Katelyn.

Thank you Lord.
I love you and the desire of my heart is to Serve YOU!

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

conversations with Alysa

Did you know that a 19 month old can hold a conversation with you without you having to say a word? Hers just went as follows:

"Socks on"
so mommy puts her socks on

She immediately responds, "socks off" and pulls them off.

I try to put them on again. "no, no." She grabs them from me and tries to do it herself.
After 1 second of trying she hands me the socks and says "do it".
I get one sock on before she says. "no" and then is sidetracked by something on the floor. "Wipes,"she says. There was a baby wipe on the floor and off she goes.

So, needless to say, she is now standing beside me eating "Crackers" wearing one sock.

I know, it is one of those moments that doesn't really mean as much to you unless you were there. It was just cute and priceless to me.

Please continue to pray that I will hold out these next 2 days and not going into labor. My body is showing some of the signs of it so I just take it hour by hour. If it happens, it happens and I am OK with it but it would be nice to make it to my pre-op visit tomorrow and have the paperwork all ready.

We serve an AWESOME God.

love to all

Saturday, November 03, 2007

Half a Year

6 months today. It doesn't really feel like it has been a whole half a year since my mom died. I have been dreading this day as I did a lot of anniversary days with Olivia. And, like the others, I have come through the day a lot better than I anticipated.

I miss you Mom.

last pregnancy post most likely

Wow. It's November.

Just a short note to let you know that I had my last visit with my baby Dr. yesterday. Things are still going well. Katelyn's heart rate was strong. We are still on target for a c-section on November 8th. I will go in for a pre-op visit on Wed morning and have to be at the hospital at 6:15am on Thur. morning. ahhhh. The surgery is scheduled for 7:45am.

I would appreciate your prayers for calm nerves are my part and wisdom and steadiness of hand for the Drs. part. Also, for good health for Katelyn and protection these last few days before she is born. I am really struggling with the fear that she will still die from cord entanglement. These thoughts were really strong the day a hit a week before my surgery date because that is when Olivia got into trouble.

No matter what the outcome - God is good. Brian or I will post as soon as we can to let you know that she has arrived. (and a picture or two!!)


Saturday, October 27, 2007


I am just going to use this to vent. Probably won't make me feel better in the end but I am mad and just feel like talking it out.
You've all felt that way I am feeling right now.

When you just wish that people would leave well enough alone. It is just one of those situations where I have told those involved that I would take care of things and leave things alone and they don't. And of course it's a family member.

After Katelyn is born we need to settle down and write a will and make sure all our ducks are in a row.

So much hurt and confusion would have been fixed if my mom and dad had all the proper paper work in order. Mom was way better about it but there are always a few loose ends. My dad had nothing in order really and it has caused a lot of hurt. Just telling your family your wishes is not good enough, nor is just writing it down really. Things need to be signed, dated, notarized and all that wonderful stuff. So, if I could encourage you all to take care of one thing in the new year to come...for your family or children's sake...make sure you have a will written and know what will transpire if you should die. For those of you with young children, you may just assume that if something happens to you that they would stay with family. Not necessarily true. Without proper documentation your children will probably end up in the state foster care system.

anyway.........being this far along in my pregnancy I can't change the situation that is about to transpire. I just need to give my feelings of anger and resentment to God. As, Brian keeps isn't doing any good to be upset. Doesn't change things and I know the stress is not good so I end here and will try to have a good rest of the day.

yes, the larger print is on purpose. That's my "I'm frustarted" type. :) But, silly as it seems... I do feel a little better.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Getting Close

What does it mean when you open your refrigerator and discover you had put Cheerios in there earlier?

Also, recently I have had this strong urge to clean out the utensil drawer, clean out the kids closets, and go Christmas shopping!! The latter of theese would be near impossible for me to do as my walking is very limited.

I have to take it day by day. Yesterday was a good day. I was able to be up most of the day. I got to lay down for a couple hours in the afternoon. I cooked dinner and was able to go to Youth Group with Brian. When people asked how I was feeling I was able to say, "really good."

Today is not so good. I pretty much can't be on my feet at all or it's contraction city. oh well. I have been trying to organize some more by dumping the project on the floorin front of me and working on it sitting down. I've got a little done but not what my brain wants me to. It's hard when your body and brain want to do differnt things. :)

Monday, October 22, 2007

from a few nights ago

This is something from my journal a few nights ago. Very random and personal. Not written to anyone just what I was thinking at the moment.

I. Spiritual Thoughts

It’s been awhile since I’ve written anything. There isn’t anything particular on my mind tonight.

I really miss mom. I still can’t comprehend that she is gone. It really makes me take a deeper look at my life. After Olivia, Mom and Pete – Death is very real.
REAL. INSTANT. I realize someone can be in the process of dying for months, weeks, or days. (actually the moment we are born we are dying) But I’m talking about that final moment. At one moment Olivia was here. She was breathing. Her heart was beating. Her soul was inside her body. Then, in an instant – her heart beat that one last time and her soul was in Heaven with her Lord.

“To absent from the body is to be present wit the Lord.’

Now, for me as he mommy, this is where the “rubber meets the road” so to speak. It’s the time I really take a look at my faith. Is it Real? Solid? Do I REALLY believe what I just wrote? Is Heaven my reality?

Yes, it is. But, I would not be telling the truth is I didn’t admit that there are those fleeting moments of doubt and that “what if” moments. I try not to entertain these thoughts. I know that they are not from the Lord. I have to remember Jesus. I have to remember that He died on the cross for me – for Heaven’s sake.

In reality I suppose it takes the same amount of faith to believe, “In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.”, as it does all the rest.

II. missing my mom


The last time you “saw” Alysa she wasn’t even walking. If only you could see her now. You knew Tyler to be quite the chatter box but now you can hold actual conversations with him.

I am about 3 weeks away from having Katelyn. I never got to call and tell you that she was a she! Or her name. I can’t believe you are not going to be here to hold her. The flip side is – the last time that I saw Olivia she was only almost 3 months old. And you get to be with her now.

What happened mom? Was it the chemo? Was it just your heart, or the chemo did this to your heart? Were you scared? Were you in pain long? What were your last thoughts?

I’m so sorry that you were alone. Since you can’t answer me I can’t only hope that you felt the Lord’s presence and that is wasn’t a long walk Home.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Monday, October 15, 2007

Pregnancy update

I have a post to put on here that I have hand written and just need to type out. but Tonight I will just give you an update on the pregnancy. I will hit 36 weeks on Thursday. My c-section is scheduled for Nov. 8, the day I will hit 39 weeks. This would be a week before my actual due date. I don’t (and my Dr. seems hesitant too) think that I will make it that far.

Some of you have been asking - Another c-section is not my choice. I am not sure that I would even be a good candidate to try to have a natural birth after a c-section but my insurance would not cover it so it was not an option.

Emotionally, I am feeling ok. You will see how my thoughts have been going in the next post. Physically, I feel 9 months pregnant. I am having lots and lots of Braxton Hicks contractions so I am pretty much able to do NOTHING. I do a lot of sitting or lying down. The mornings are a little better at this point but by afternoon if I am up and about for even 10 minutes I have to lay down. Anyway, all is fine. I am just taking it moment by moment. I am very thankful for Liz, a friend from church who is helping my out with some housework here and there. I just can’t do it now and feel very discouraged at times. After she leaves and I can see the floor and table again I feel much better.

Can’t end without showing off my wonderful (very active kids) Also, you can see how much Alysa has changed in the year. Tyler would not let me take one of him and his pumpkin last year and this year it was a struggle. We had to make bribes to get the photos we did.

Alysa 2007
Alysa 2006

Tyler 2007

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

HELLO! Yes, it has been a long time. So much so that I won’t be able to fill on all the blanks. I don’t even remember what I have written in the past so some of this may be a repeat.

The last time I was at mom’s I had a mini mental/physical breakdown. I don’t know what the difference is. I spent some time recovering from that. I’m still having a hard time. I know that I should be taking the antidepressants that have been prescribed but I just can’t do it. Even though my baby Dr. says that it is safe to take the warning on the label scares me. I am just trying to ride the waves and praying that the Lord would heal my emotions. No one, except the Lord, knows how much I miss my mom.

Katelyn will be here in about 6 weeks. I am not looking forward to having another c-section. I also anticipate that I will struggle with post partum depression as I will miss my mom even more at this time of joy. She was right there when Tyler came into the world and she was the one who watched Tyler when the girls were born.

Some of you have been wondering where I have been. I have just been so down that I have not really felt up to writing. And as I told someone, I felt that if I had nothing good to say, I wouldn’t say anything at all.
My mom’s house is now pretty empty. We were able to get it loaded into a u-haul (thanks to my church family in Machias) and get it into storage close to me here. I will be able to deal with it at a later time. There hasn’t been much interest in her house a lot due to the price. It’s a big house (6 bedrooms) in a very small town. You have to travel an hour in either direction just to get to Wal- Mart. Yep, I grew up without the ever famous Wally World at my fingertips. Didn’t have Mc Donalds either! How did I ever make it? Ha ha

I still covet your prayers. There is still a lot going on with the family in general and Brian and I have some big decisions to make in the near future. I can’t go into details right now but I will tell you more when I can.

This isn’t exactly what I wanted to write but it’s been so long…..

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Here She Is!!

in 4D anyway....

Don't worry. I did not have my baby yet. Though I was in the hospital last night having her monitored. Too much stress in mommy I think. Baby Girl was fine.

At todays ultrasound we had a little fun with the 4D imaging. Interesting picture I know. Fun and a little freakiy looking at the same time. I don't want to get a million comments on how beautiful she looks from the photo. I know you will be lying. ha ha. But I know that in real life she will be. It still doesn't tell me exactly what she will look like but it was calming to watch her on the screen. You only see a picture taken from the video like feed that I was watching. She was rubbing her eyes and making strange smirks with her mouth. It was so neat.
Also, we have picked a name.
You can set it in stone because we have agreed we are tired of trying to find something we both agree on. So, unless she pops out a boy, her name is
Katelyn Alexis Ritchie.
And the tech triple checked today and said she is 100% girl.
One final note:
Brian's grandfather passed away about 2 o'clock this morning. Please continue to uphold the family in your thoughts and prayers in the days to come.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

been awhile

I know. It's been awhile. And I know that some of you are worried about me after my last post.
I just wanted to let you know that I am still here. There is a lot to share but it won't be today.
Please still hold me (and the family) in your thoughts and prayers. I can't tell you what you may want to hear - that I am doing great and life is a wonderful. I serve a great and wonderful God but emotionally I am still a wreck. Life is good....but very short. As we face another death in the family (Brian's grandfather) in the near future we find this fact hard to miss.

I am heading back to my mom's in the next couple of days. I will try to catch you all up on everything when I get back.

The the person who left the comment about seeing a Dr. I have. I have been on antidepressants in the past but am very leery of it when I am prego or nursing. I have another appointment tomorrow to get things settled about going back on something. I do understand part of this is a real issue that can be dealt with my medication but I have to be very careful what I can take. My body doesn't
until next timetolerate it well when I start messing with my chemical imbalance.

I am trying not to handle this all on my own. That is my tendency. I am trying to accept help and things like that.

Sunday, August 12, 2007


What does it feel like to have a mental breakdown? Or a physical one that that matter? Anyone out there know and want to share. I am sure that are multiple answers to this question. I am beginning to wonder if I am reaching that point.

that said, pray for me. My stress levels are through the roof as I plan my next trip to my mom's. All this stress can't be good for baby Ritchie.


Saturday, August 11, 2007


Dear friends,
If my memory would allow me to rewrite the blog that I wrote in my mind last night - I would have you sitting here for quite some time. It was quite the epiphany. But, as you all know, once you write something in your mind, for some reason you can never get it out on paper the same way. At least that is how it works for me.
Suffice it to say that I have had a hard week. I guess I would even say that I am little depressed. The tears have fallen a little more this week that in the past. I’ve been thinking a lot about Olivia and Mom.
Since, I don’t feel like writing something original tonight I will share with you a poem that I found that I wrote to my mom in 2000. (on that note, I did find my book so sometime I will start another blog to use to share parts of it with you)

You took on this role when I was just one.
I can never thank you for all that you’ve done.

You took me to church where I learned of the Lord.
You bought me the things that were hard to afford.

You were always there to show your love
And prayed for me to the Lord above.

Where did time go? I grew up so fast.
I try to recall the things of the past.

When things were tough it was hard to understand.
Looking back now I see only God’s protective Hand.

It’s been just me and you for quite awhile.
We’ve taken it step by step; mile by mile.

Only now am I beginning to see
Just how faithful God is to you and me.

I’m also realizing all I’ve done wrong.
Wish now that I hadn’t taken so long.

In Rebellion and Sin, I fell deep
Now the consequences I will reap.

Yet, you are still here to show your love
And pray for me to the Lord above.

Graduation is coming - just a short time away.
Can’t wait to be home, when I can finally stay.

Not quite sure what the Lord wants me to do.
I’ll just live for Him - faithful and true.

Every day the “slate of my sin” is wiped clear
I can start over with my Savior so dear.

Thank You for loving God and being my “mother”.
I would not trade you for any other.

I love you so much - it’s time I show it more.
And want to build the friendship we should have had before.

Instead of chocolates and flowers, I give you love from the heart.
Needing to begin somewhere - there’s no better place to start.

Amy Elizabeth

The part of this that I need to remember most right now is:

“When things were tough it was hard to understand.
Looking back now I see only God’s protective Hand.”

My hearts prayer is that sometime in the future I will have another poem to write and I be looking back and seeing how God used this time in my life for His glory.

This is our 1st photo taken together

This was taken at the graduation mentioned in the poem.

It was from New Brunswick Bible Institute.

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Didn't forget Tyler

Just been busy...but, here is my handsome boy. This was taken when Dad took him to the park. Alysa and I were at a scrapbooking event. I know that Tyler enjoys the one on one time with his Daddy.

Next I'll try to work on an updated family picture for you all. I think the last one on here is over a year old!

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Words Alysa picked up in July



nana - for banana

hot dog - for vienna sausages

bite - or "I bite" meaning I want another bite of food

stuck - though duck, truck and stuck all sound the same.

nite nite

all done - and she will hand you her plate when she is done

here -she say this when she hands you something

bug - though the first time she said this she was talking about a Fly



Things that remind me of my mom

To name a few...


Corn chowder

Grits and cheese - yes, she was from the South

Hamburger helper -she was famous for taking this to church suppers

Tri colored pasta with kidney beans and parmesan cheese - don’t ask. We made this up

Red - her favorite color to wear

Yard Sales and Dollar Stores

Necco candies

Freedent Gum - especially the green kind

My children

Monday, July 30, 2007

for July 29th

Yesterday would have been my mom's 68th birthday. She wouldn't have wanted me to make a big fuss about it because she hated the thought of getting older. But I would never let the day go by without making sure she knew that I loved her. Being Sunday and being at church I thought a lot about her through the day. I just returned from her house on Friday. It was not a productive week. I will have to return there shortly.

I don't even know what to say. I'm just tired, frustrated and overwhelmed.

As for the factsy stuff. I went to the Drs. today and baby girl Ritchie seems to be doing fine. I am about 25 weeks along and have finally gained 4 pounds! How many women do you know WANT to gain weight. We have no name picked at the moment.

Tyler is still his busy little self. He took being at Grammie Peters better than I thought. He stopped asking when she would be coming home after the first couple days. He wondered why things were missing though. He seemed most upset about the roosters not being in her kitchen.
He is full of questions. "Who is that. Where is he going? Do you see the school bus? What does a anteater say?" You who have kids know what I mean.

Alysa is growing leaps and bounds. Her vocab is growing steadily. She is even starting to put 2 words together. She is SO beautiful.

I will try to post some pics later.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Rough day

What a hard day. I did manage to clean half of my living room but that was about it.
For lunch I had something that made me think of mom and that is what started it I guess. This evening it was just listening to and watching Alysa. She is so grown up in some ways. Such a different person that the "baby" my mom saw in March.

It just started the line of thinking.
"My mom really died. Her heart stopped beating and she took her last breath.
She was alone. It wasn't supposed to be that way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She was supposed to get old or sick or something and I was supposed to take care of her.

She was supposed to move closer to us.
She was supposed to be here when my little girl enters the world.
She was supposed to see Tyler go to kindergarten and Alysa and all of them!!
I miss her SO much.
It hurts so much.

The phone is supposed to ring at some random time and it is supposed to be mom.

I am supposed to have someone to send the cute pictures of my kids.
She is supposed to be here on the 29th for her birthday. I should have been there with her making her a cake and treating her special - NOT packing her things into boxes and selling her furniture!

I see what I thought was SUPPOSED to be and what the Lord so saw fit to have happen are two different things. I can't really believe she is gone. What lesson am I supposed to walk away with. Why now? Why this year? Wasn't letting go of Olivia and hearing her take her last breath enough?"

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Super Stressed (pictures added)

I'm looking for all you prayer warriors out there. I am feeling very stressed and am seeking the Lord's calming power.

I will be going to my mom's next week with the 2 kids and without Brian. That alone stresses me. Hopefully, one or two of the teen girls from church can go with me to help with the kids.

The purpose of this trip - well when I mom's house should be empty. Now please remember my mom has a 6 bedroom house. This means selling, packing, moving and getting rid of a lot of stuff. This makes me anxious, sad, and feeling very overwhelmed. I'm hoping my church family from down there can be a really big help because I can't really be lifting boxes and moving furniture.

If you like to take a peek you can click on the link below to go to the page where it is up for sale. It only had the one picture though from the outside.
Depending on if someone goes with me or not I would have to come back to bring them home at the end of the week but then I plan on heading back down if I need and stay until the job is completed. With the kids, it is about a 4 hour trip one way.

On a totally different note. This week I am working my living room. I hope to get the pictures up before I go. We did get Tyler's room picked up yesterday. His room was easy. Just his toys scattered about. As you with kids know though, it is a CONSTANT thing to keep it picked up. I put the truck on his shelf and 30 seconds later he has them all down again. He has not learned the concept of one thing or one group of toys at a time. He wants them ALL off the shelves or the WHOLE toy box empty. We'll keep working on it and hopefully with age he will improve.

not the most intesteresting post I know, but this is were we are in life right now.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Heard a song

It'll be awhile before I get my poems are here. I can't find my book. I think it's in the bedroom and I still have a long way to go in there.

The other day while I was working in Alysa's room I had the radio on. I heard a song that really hit me. I could have written it myself. That is also one of my ultimate goals. I love to write. I haven't taken the time lately to do that. The Lord has given me plenty of things to write about.

"Bring The Rain"

"I can count a million times
People asking me how
I Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You

Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain

So I pray Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty"

words by mercy me

July 8, 1980

Today I would have been calling mom just to let her know that I was thinking about her. I do every year on this date. This would have been one of her down days as she would have been thinking about her daughter (my mother) that went to be with Jesus on July 8, 1980. - It's kind of hard to comprehend but now she is with her. After all these years....

We will be leaving for church in a few minutes so I don't have time right now but I have a couple poems that I wrote about my mom in highschool that I will share with you. So check back soon. :)

Friday, June 29, 2007

One Year

I was wondering what today would be like. How would I feel? Would I cry a lot? I have been thinking about Olivia a lot but I am not doing that bad.

I was a little disappointed because her stone is still not at the cemetery. They had said it would be ready by the end of the month of June. (we ordered it mid May) I called about it today and he said it will still be another couple of weeks.

Olivia Lynn is with Jesus. I could wish nothing better for her on this day.

I love you baby girl and I will never forget you.


Smart Girl.

Alysa is so smart. According to the charts if she was saying about 10 words at 17 and 18 months, she would be on target.

She will be 15 months on July 3rd and her vocabulary includes:

1. Mam ma, probably the word she uses the most throughout the day
2. Dadda
3. no
4. up (as in pick me up!)
5. dog
6. moo (she knows that is what a cow says)
7. newer word is "Elmo"
8. bubble
9. hi
10. bye bye
11. nose - though it sounds like no. but if asked she will point to her nose.
12. "ow", as in Tyler is hurting me or I am stuck somewhere.
13. I think her most recent is, "MINE" Of course, most everything belongs to her in her mind!
14. ball

Don't fear. I think Tyler is smart too. I couldn't even type all the things he talks about. He talks all the time. He's learning more and more songs from Sunday school. "Jesus Loves Me" is still his favorite but I hear the song, "Happy and I" quite often. His newest favorite (learned from Daddy) to which he sings most of the words is "Rock a bye Baby." He loves asking questions. The same ones over and over as you know. And Tyler was my fast learner when it came to walking. He has it mastered at 9 months. Alysa took a little more time but was up and at it a couple weeks after her 1st birthday. Now there is NO stopping her. And climb! You better watch out.

Thursday, June 28, 2007


It's a GIRL. It's a GIRL! I'm so happy. Girls are of the rarity in the Ritchie family so I was never expecting to have another one. At least not this one. I am glad that Alysa will still have a SISTER to grow up with. It is not the same as having Olivia for sure but it is nice.

The Lord is so gracious and good. Of course, if it were a boy, He would still be gracious and good. I am 20 weeks today. (halfway there) Everything looked good. The baby has all her finger and toes so to speak. :)

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Days like today

It's days like today that are hard. It's not a particular day. Just that it's about 2pm. Brian is gone to spend the afternoon with a friend who is moving far away in a month or so. The kids are entertaining themselves. It's times like this that I would be calling mom. There isn't anything in particular that I would be calling for, but a lot of the times there wasn't.
I can't believe that I will never be calling her again.

Friday, June 22, 2007

It has been One Year

Leaving the hospital

First picture when she got home

first moments together at home.

one of the very few with Mommy and both girls

resting in a bouncy seat for a little change

One of my favorites

You have seen some of these pictures before when I did a photo post remembering Olivia's life. We have quite a few other pictures but try to share just the better ones. These are pictures from her 2 weeks at home. She had a lot of bad times. Her first few days at home she did really well and had relatively few spells. But as you know, it all went downhill from there. I'm so thankful for those 14 days. Forever etched in my mind.

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

My Mom and My Kids

This is mom and me just moments after Tyler made his
arrival into this world. She was there for the whole event.
That was an amazing moment. Then it crosses my mind
that Mom was right there on the couch with me when Olivia
made her arrival into the Lord's arms from mine.
Mom was Always there. I can't belive that she is not here

with Olivia at the hospital

with Alysa

with Tyler

Tyler and Olivia at home
with Alysa and Olivia

giving Olivia a kiss

with Ty & Alysa

These photos are not in a particlular order. They are just some of the memories I have of Mom and my kids. Unfortunately, all my kids will have are the pictures. They won't have the memories. Even though Tyler talks about Grammie Peters often now, I don't know if he will remember her at all when he is older.
Last year on this day we were anticipating Olivia coming home the next day. Can you really believe it has been a whole year? I will be posting pictures of her coming home and a trip down memory lane of her two weeks home in the days to come. Olivia Lynn, Mommy misses you and loves you SO much.