Am I ever going to wake up? I mean, that must be it. I must be sleeping....and this is all a bad dream!
Oh, how I wish that were true.
My heart is still hurting too much to try to write what I am feeling or to try to make sense of this all. But during the next few weeks I will be sharing with you lots of letters (and pictures) from and to my mom. For those of you who know me personally or my mom you know our story and why we were close. For those of you who do not, I want to share that with you and have it here for me to see in black in white.
The creative part of my soul is taking a break right now, but I have tons of things to share from the past.
Do not think for a moment...that in all this craziness that I have forgotten my dear Olivia. All of my heart just hurts right now. I can't say that I have a certain hurt that is for Olivia and one for my mom. It all just blends together. I will refocus again on some thought about Olivia near the end of next month as we remember the day she came home from the hospital to spend what we did not know would be her last 2 weeks with us. June 29th. I will never forget that day.
Love to you all